Pressing Forward

 Ever experience a thousand thoughts zooming through your two hemispheres widely known as your brain ? Trudging along like the force of a heavy train they press on with necessary stops to accomplish life. You know those moments when eating and sleeping require you to slow down to a complete stop momentarily. Deep within the web of feelings connect to memories connect to people connect to feelings connect to memories connect to places and on and on we remember and think upon all we know. Life is tragically beautiful. Each breath a gift from our Creator. We who choose to know Him as Lord know of His incredible thereness. He allows us to be who He created us to be within our freewill and his availability to guide us. At this present moment in my life journey I’m ever aware of my Father God’s heavenly presence. There’s a bunch of life happening all around me that only truly God sees the intricate details of. The pockets of my heart coming up for oxygen while tears of both adventure and acceptance shake hands. Sometimes in this journey the experience of being misunderstood has plagued me. The smile I wear being judged as a mask when truly it’s my courage pushing upward with my lips. Or when I cry buckets of tears being seen as a distraction only to be kindly reminded the liquid leaking is healing ointment for my soul.  Those in my world shout mixed messages about who they are to me. One has never, God. God has promised He will never walk away from me, stop talking with me, hold grievances against me but love me continually and forever. His perfect love is just that. Because I know God is who He says he is and will do what He says He will do I lean upon His Word. In 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 it says, “we are hedged in (pressed) on every side (troubled and oppressed in every way), but not cramped or crushed; we suffer embarrassments and are perplexed and unable to find a way out, but not driven to despair; we are pursued (persecuted and hard driven), but not deserted (to stand alone); we are struck down to the ground, but never struck out and destroyed;”. Then in Philippians 3:14 it says, “I press on toward the goal to win the (supreme and heavenly) prize to which God in Christ is calling us upward.” In the end all our thoughts, tears and emotions matter to the One who knows us best and loves us completely. Unlike some ignorant Hollywood tv hosts who mock hearing the voice of God calling it a form of mental illness, I hear God speaking to me this very moment with a gentle reminder that He’s ready, available and able to engineer the train of soul. He’s sweetly offering me to find safety, peace and hope in the deliverance of His outcome. My heartfelt response  arms open wide soft grin on my face humble stance, “yes Lord!”  Choosing to trust God no matter the outcome is an adventurous risky ride I’m willing to take- are you?